Hi :/

So... we're not together anymore.
I am not doing great, to be honest.
I still love you.
You're still stuck in my head, living there as a permanent and beautiful picture of who
I imagine when I think about the girl I would like to spend all my time with.

I wish you were still next to me.
I feel like I am forever replaying those moments in my head.
The day you told me you liked me.
It was a surreal moment, straight out of a love story.
The time you wanted to kiss me, and I said "We'll do that in a better place".

We never did.

The last time you hugged me. It was the day you tried to kill yourself.
It was really strange. We had already stopped seeing each other for 3 or 4 days.
in the hallway, next to AD116 room, you grabbed me and hugged me so hard. Held me so tight.
I was a bit confused.

But I understand it now.
I want to be there for you. What hurts the most is not knowing how you're feeling. If you're fighting alone.

I still want to ask you every day how you're doing.
I wanna be here for you.
Because I love you.

And knowing that we will not achieve everything we planned.
Knowing you left me while we were still in love.
Knowing you need support.

But
Do I miss you, or do I miss how you made me feel ?
Anyways
I could only feel like this with you.
Maybe it is the answer.


Tristan

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